It's 12:22 AM ...

&& I'm thinking, ... what do I want .

&& I'm scared to find out . because what I want, I can't have because it isn't realistic because I'm in a situation where I just can't get it .
I hate this .
I hate this .
I hate this .

I mean, ... hey, I can get what I want, trust and belieeeeve That ,
but when I get that, what follows up, are the consequences .
am i willing to suffer to get this ?
pros && cons ?

life isn't hard, but it's definetly challenging .
decisions .
decisions .
decisions .

ARGGH !
SO FRUSTRATING !