I Just Need To Vent,

okayy .. honestly I'm not mad . just a bit upset . "lookin for a real youngin" ?? bitch i'm right here what the fuckkk . im not bein pressed or on dicks or nothin, i just need an understanding . what is about me that isnt REAL ? and its just like ... nigga what the fuck . are you stupid ? do you knwwww what youre leaving behind ? i payed for your dinner the first time my mom took us out, i payed for you and juan's pizza and hotwings when yall come over, i bought you your favorite candy jus cus i was thinking about you ! and gave you other favors as well ... and what have you done for me ? NOTHING !
You aint neva buy me shit or give meee and "favors" or whatever . but you know what ? i ddnt even care . i didnt need all that . i dont need your money or anything like that cus thats not what im about . im about bein here and there for you . i got you . this may sound corny but i wanted your heart, and nothing else . nothing moneyy can buy . i wanted your love and understanding . but i guess i cant get everything i want . all i wanted was you . but i guess im not enough for YOUU . but you know what, im not even trippin . you do youu . and ima do mee . i hope you DO find a real youngin, realer than me ? good luck mutherfucker . cus im as real as it gets . im not gonna lie to you and youknow that . im not gonna cheat on you, and you know that . i was always there for you, and you know that .
i always asked howyour day went, how your basketball games went, what you doin today, do you wanna hang out, whats on your mind, do you wanna talk aabout it blah blah blahhh ,,... but do youuu ask MEE any of that ? fuckkk nooo . you never ask about my track meets, my life, how im feeling, do iiiii wanna go out somewhere, nothingggg . because you dont care . and i just CANT believe that i wasted my time like this . you aint no different than the rest of them, i hope you know that .
&& for YOUUR information, i think NALANI should be the one "LOOKIN FOR A REAL ASS NIGGA" .
Ha .
good luck on life, i hope you a beast in basketball, and i hope your lil band make alot of money, and i hope you get all the girls in the world . but i just hope you dont play with them ... thats all i ask of you ...
if you cant give ME, what I yearn from you, ... at least give it to someone special .
seriously .